amanina is the name. I'm a relatively good girl. I want a freaking new phone ! Boohoo. A's for many2 many2 subject.. I have an absolutely sweet tooth and I like chocolates and candy floss although they make me look kiddish most of the time. I absolutely adore my family in school and eye shadows and I often go gaga over them.
hey ...
Firstly, i would wanna apologies to people I ever talk about . Sorry loads ...
Secondly, Happy New Year & Happy Birthday to myself.. it's kinda weird to wish myself.. it doesnt matter..
okayy.. here's the part ....
should i say my first date ? or it's just a friendly treat ...? i guess..
i went out with this guy.. he's treat me movie and lunch .
quite sweet actually. but when i think again , cant be a date la.. he is WAY older than me ..
anw , my parents dont really like me close to him .. luckily i didnt tell them i went out with him ..
then.... we are not in love. we are just friends . but why we argued a lot..
is it i like him but i dont want to tell? just keeping my feelings to myself ?
or is it me who cause the trouble ? to fight ?
and is it the reason why i've been single although ...
hmm...
Baa haa!!
kay ...
last Friday , ader raye concert .
me on stage singing with my friends like fafah, fai, mar,atiqah
fadhil, sufyan, amyrul,akmal and BUZZ.
Gerek tu gerek uh..
fai inlove w him.. then mar was like .. aku nk partner nan BUzz..
then skali tengok sape zuri tu kan .. I buZZrst out loud.. padan muke mar ..
haha!!
so far gerek la.. kite sesama gurau senda ..
lepas raye concert .. my frens except fadhil kept on disturbing me saying me and fadhil suits..
WTH! haha!
Semalam pergi KFC w fafah and akmal..
then akmal took my fone ,,godeh2..
i didnt notice what he exactly do w it ..
my mum call , then i havent finish talking,hp mati ..
biasa la ..tak charge..
then balik rumah on hp ..
Guess what ?
Gambar FADHIL was put as my wallpaper.. GRR...
haha!
here you go ...
Fadhil = papa Bear
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-TINY DANGEROUS ONE-
I was really busy with my NP, Councillor, Homeworks ..
I didn't really spent time with my family especially with my grandma ..
Last Wednesday ,,
She was having high fever..
3 days later , on Friday ..
Doctor asked my mum to call the ambulance ..
it was raining heavily in th morning .
So she decided to call later..
12nn .. .
My maid called my mum .
telling her, grandma's heartbeat stopped.
calling the ambulance.15mins paramedic arrived.
around 12+ , i went home .
to get my stuff for NP.
Didn't know her heartbeat stopped
I saw an ambulance ,
Parked at the parking lot near my house.
I waited, just to see who's that .
saw my maid.
Ran toward her while paramedics pushed grandma to the van.
Tried asking my maid what happened,
didn't really understand or hear as she was in the van already ..
but her eyes were red as if she had just finished crying.
I wasn't that worried because my grandma was supposed to go to hospital actually..
i kept quiet as i walked back home..
Took my stuff and when back to school..
After rehearsing for APEX , I went to Np to get change.
Went inside 2M3 classroom to put my back ,
I received call from my mum at 3.30pm
Her voice was soft.
She asked me to get my bro to pick up my sister
And told me to clean the house.
She also told me this ," nenek da meninggal"
I broke down and straight away took my bag and leave.
Saw ATOK and told him i got to leave.
Asked me why ..
I told him about my grandma.
I was crying ..
i left, he said take care..
Went down to canteen, crying. saw fafah.. she hugged me
followed me fetch my sis..
around 4.30pm got home with people in my house waitng for grandma's body .
I took a shower , i wasnt crying anymore..
when i got changed with my scarf on ..
i went outside.. a lot had arrived.
My grandma too.. she was being bathe by the ustazah something like that with my mum.
Around 5pm. Grandma was already tied.. i cried.
Non stopped.
Paternal grandpa saw me crying .. told me not to cry ..
i hugged him ..
i kissed my grandma's cheek .
for th last time..
after me, the ustazah closed the face with kain kapan , i cried even worst ..
by 7, she was already buried ..
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i will always love her no matter what..
When she came to my house, i really hate her. to me she was being nuisance.
later i found out that she was lovely.
Usually, i would lie down on bed with her.. making jokes..
but last week , i didnt even talk to her or even salam her when leaving
and coming back from school.
i was busy and she was sick ..
i didn't dare to disturb her..
I was really sad because I didn't manage to seek forgiveness from her..
that was th most important thing.
Now she's gone ..
I have to move on ..
" Yang mane pergi , pasti akan kembali .."
Wishing her th best there..
I <3 her ..
okayy ... if you read this ,... well.. great enough ..
so this how it goes..
I dont freaking understand you ..
I really hate the way you act..
it's kind of a B*tch ..
honestly..
Although it looks like we're friends..
We aren't..
Coz I dont like having B*tches as friends..
Dont think, i dont noe what you up to..
Coz no matter how you try to talk behind my back,
i'll always be watching ..
it's so damn obvious...
What goes around, comes around..
I dont noe why you look so Friendly and Innocent
while actually , you're like a devil in a human's body ..
ugly creature...
really...
You disgust me ...
'Get a Life B*tch !'
okay .. today was kindaf funny...
this handsome teacher ..
was heading to the third floor
while we were heading to the first floor..
we met at the second floor..
he was like .. looking at all three of us ..
he kept on looking at me..
i was like damn!
haha! i tried ignoring him, while SHAFROOL..
idiot la he..
he went to great that teacher ..
i was still ignoring him.. i didnt say a thing..
he walk passed me and i was like .. yknow..
hehe!..
shafrool scolded me .. " what kind of councillor are you ?
donnoe how to greet teachers is it ?"
i will greet ever teachers but not him..
i just hate handsome guys like him ..
anw .., remember .. B*tch !
"Get a life!"
or people will just hate ... YOU!
hey ... long since i posted something .. Kind of busy lately .. hehe ... k .. since i last posted something , many freaking things happen to me ... heeh !
first i fall for this guy , F . He is kind hearted.. ala .. sweet talk la. . so when i met him , my heart like melt .. awww.. soon , i think he knew that i like him .. so dier mcm pelik uh .. stupid ! so i just dont wanna talk to him .. PAISEY ... then i started thinking bad stuff about him .. he stupid . he no brain . Lazybum .. 'yknow .. stuff to make me happy...
today big thing happen to me !!! OMG! i went out of the toilet at library .. then i saw him! (btw, his name is K) then ignored. pretending not to see .. then he went , " hey.. " My heart skipped a beat .. OMG again .. !! then i saw him with this girl .. :( i became sad... awww.. i kept looking at them .. feeling very sad !!!!!! ARGH !! BUT , i asked him at FACEbook just now , he said they are JUSt friends.. well .. happy la aku !! people2 tell me , how can i get close to him ? hmm ..
hmm .. well it's been a long time i didnt post anything ..
okays.. i've been busy lately. ..
school re-open was really suck-ish actually..
ya .. for example , going home late and have too many free period..
seriously ... but on the other hand .. well , new handsome teacher ..
puji je .. not gona fall for him .. and i've been seeing him lately.. yknow who ..
he gave me a lil' gift tadi .. a keychain with an A . hehe .. he is kind of not romantic
but can say he's like ' malu2 kind uh '
what the crap i'm into .. okay ..
apart from that ..
yknow cet ? ya the geeky guy with specs .. ya lah .. that one ..
he didnt see me in hist class ya.. then he did the blank kiss to Asyura .
straight away i called him ' CET !!!' then he saw me then he was like..
alamak .. u .. i tak nampak u ..
then he smile .. Wth ! haha .. kk jokes aside .
my friend and her boyfriend had a hard time yeap ..
connection lost for moment .. okay .. la ..hope they would stop argueing la.. haha ..kk
hello ..
Lately i went to MELAKA with my np frens ..
i had fun tho tired... haha!
I was really tired.. hehe
then2...
when fiizah was asleep.. , we sprinkle/pour powder on her face .. hehe!
then she woke up crying !
hah!
I was like ... SHIT !
then her hair was covering half her face
then her eyes became red and she cried .
and and and she stared .
okaaay ,, i was scared abit uh..
but there were 4 of us .. so we weren't really scared uh//
hmm.. crazy fiizah...
kk.. bla bla bla. ..
i've been thinking .. should i or shouldn't i go out of exco ?
hmm... Someone !! Help me! kk..
hey hey hey ...
Sorry peeps ,,
its kinda a week i last posted something ..
heehhees..
kk,, I've been very busy ... damn busy ..
im really tired tauu!
i tot im like free for some reason ,,, like *********
my hols are so damn pack !!
argghh!! Mr phua !!!
i dont wanna join frisbee comp!!!!!
i want stay at home!
siall la tcher!!!
hhah!!
stress you noe!!
heeh! besok ader AEM ,.. mcm best uhh ..
kk
countdown .. 2 more days ?
heeh ?
Nak ke MELAKA Oi!!!
haha!
pack bag pon tidak..
haish ...i ngantok ready..
i really going gila now.. kk
bye gigs !
ASSHOLE!
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PEOPLE , PEOPLE , PEOPLE !! hello ! haha! today was normal .. hmm.. during art , all we did is sit down and read book as teacher mark our work . then they all talk about Jogja .. ya la.. i not going mahh ... :( hmm .. sad .. then3 during SS , i was like first to hand in my file .. so she ask me to take something in Hist room ... inside got teacher with students .. i paisey2 uh but of course i got to go uh . then got who uh .. aaahh ... ms ng i guess. then myfirst look at the students , i saw him .. Quickly i turn away .. :( then blah blah blah
after school i saw another "him" . then i ignored him .. hmm.. i shy laa.. shy shy .. then he walk away (go home) hmm. then i sad! haha.. nehmy .. sooner , i went home.. then he text me ! i happy!! hahah!! Freak!
Today I woke up at 5a.m Because i got to Shit out the food and the vitamin . Stupid sunkist orange and orange vitamin .. too much oranggy orange
then during exam perut buat hal pulak... i had stomachache. then i cant concentrate.. to where i was seating at , i saw him from afar . he saw me i guess(he potek man) then i tibe2 teringat kisah lamer about me and him.. kinda touched about it uhh
hmm..balik rumah with fah ..she sent me home .. then we chat222222 until entah... then i go up to my house skali check i lost my house key -.-" then my mum ask me to meet her at causeway then i call fah back then she u-turn uhh. then we walk to causeway like boifren/gerlfren okaay(i dunnoe which is the boi uh) then we hold2 hands hahah! Funny
then she met my mum . my mum ask if she wanna eat oso ..then she smile2 malu2 anjeng uhh gitu.. then soon , she when home .. the food i ate with my mum , cannot finish .. full man.. at last all food tak abes.. syg tul..
kk.. maybe saturday kua.. but u noe , im kinda PIG uhh.. lazy to go out.. but wait .. if want go out , no money , no use rite? kk.. i find money today .. tonight .. weii .. im not gonna rob a bank or something ..DURRH!! -.-" i working tonight .. hmm... ngantok confirm ... haishh.... okaay laa.. gtg peeps!
Coz' you appear just like a dream to me
that cover me ...
But whenever i look at you
I felt nothing.
I dont wanna hurt you anymore
i know you love me for who i am ..
Guess , i cant love you ..
i donnoe..
It's kinda hard to love someone now.
Coz i felt a spell that had casted on me.
"Every guy whom i date , will end up brokenheart ."
okaay ..
I guess being frens it's better than being enemies , rite?
I want you though ,, but maybe as frens ...
yeah,, frens ..
Or is it that "Love Sux" ?
Okayy people. ..
Nehh dont talk about love ... CRAP!
Today is a GEEKY day for me , i guess ...
I had been studying like OMG !
Seriously ,..
Tomorrow physics ! Im scared to fail my science!
hard tau ...
Ya.. today was really geeky .. I was studying my Physics from 1pm - 5pm
I hope i'll pass my FREAKING science..
Okaay .. I got my schedule for June hols .. huhu^^
Like .. 28-30 May going for Melaka trip with NP members ..
Either 1/2/3 June going for shooting competition .. my atok seow had borrowed my a gripper i guess.
to strengthen my arm muscle for shooting comp. He really want us to get top 30 ..
then .. 17 and 18 going for kayaking ! then 21,22,23 going for AEM .. Like ..okaay.. haha!
I guess the rest of the holidays.. im gonna spent my time studying in the morning and working at night .. Amacam?
Fun tau ... But confirm tired ... hmm .. how ..?
those who noes where im working .. Come down and support me by you noe how... Gees ..
Hmm.. i think .. Im kinda out of words .. okaay ...
Like OMG ! Yesterday i woke up with body ache. Shit.. and i can't bend down .. ouuuch.. today still aching ... Yeah .. it sux.. hahah .. i skipped ngaji today .. i told my dad sister didnt wanna go . But i said i wanna go .. (fake) So i stayed at home uh... i wanna go lib with him .. but i'm lazy to go out .. hah! FAT PIG ! Today need to find present for our dearly Eiiqah .. today celebrate her birthday.. Party .. but i think i cant.. I need to do ALOT of revision for my Hist .. Im like.. gonna fail man !! DIE DIE DIE! exam sux anyway.. haha.. actually there's nothing much today ... BLah blah blah.. BORING!! actually not so laa.. Housechores waiting for me.. I dont to do ! I;m just lazy ... uh! I have to do it.. Damn! kk la.. Byee tc...
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